From My Heart

Hello, my friends! I'm sorry that I haven't posted in so long. I've been trying to compose this post for several days now but just wasn't able to get the words out right.
As most of you know, last weekend was a pretty tough one. Starting on Thursday and lasting even up into this week. Tough. Alot harder than I thought it would be. There were tears. There were phonecalls, texts, hugs, and conversations.... and all those were accompained by tears. Tears I didn't want to shed, but that came without bidding. The greatness of the loss came over me like sea billows on Thursday and throughout the time since. Loss of so many things... it's not just about a wedding that didn't happen. It's not just about a broken relationship. It's about souls. It's about souls that will miss Heaven if they don't find Jesus precious to their hearts again. It's about hurt that has been inflicted on the Body of Christ. That's what it is about. It's really sad.
I don't want those billows to cease, because they give me a renewed urgency and fervor to hold on and to be DESPERATE for God to work. I will not be satisfied until the miracle happens and there is peace and reconciliation again. I know what God has promised and because of the promise and because of the loss I will be DESPERATE until God performs the impossiblities.
So yes, the weekend/week has been tough. But it's also been very good. Through this God showed me areas that I need to move up in. God was faithful to lead me once again. And He was also, full of Grace. His Grace that sustained and held me throughout the weekend and these hard days this week. God's amazing Grace, has comforted me and given me peace even in the midst of the darkest storm of my life. I'm so thankful for the Arms of my Heavenly Father and for His continual leadership and faithfulness to me.
My "was-to-be" wedding day is over, and there are no more dates looming in the future that I will face. The wedding day was the close of a chapter of my life. Now it's on to the next one. And the title of this one?
" When man's impossiblities and FAITH meet God's Power there is Miracles."

Just words today, coming straight from my heart. I'm writing for me, because I never want to forget the emotions I am feeling, and most importantly I never want to forget the lessons I am learning along the way. This blog is my journal. My way to remember. My journey in words through love, loss, and eventually my Miracle.

Hope you all have a Blessed Wednesday!