New Chapter

A chapter of my life, that spanned nearly 6 years, has closed. In this time, I learned about friendship, love and loss.



But you know what? This chapter has brought me so many good things and I am so thankful for it! "I thought your fiance broke up with you?" you may say... "how then can you say you are thankful?" My friend, let me tell you why I am so grateful!



I am thankful because in this time, I learned to trust God so much more,

because He was the only One who understood me and situations I faced.

I learned to fall completely into His arms of strength and grace, and rely upon His word.I was reminded of the fact that walking with God,is a daily choice.

I was reminded that when you walk with God there is peace,joy, and hope.

I was reminded, that the center of the Will of God is the safest place to be.

I was reminded that, one step outside of God's Will, will bring destruction, sorrow and pain to your heart. I was stirred like never before, to stay close to Jesus,

and allow Him to lead me in every area of life. It brought me to the point where I had to stand and make a decision about which way I was going to go.

Did I love Jesus enough to lose my fiance, the love of my life?

Did I love Him enough to face the future, possibly alone for the rest of my life?

Did I love Him enough to stand up for what was right? Did I love Jesus enough,to give up the one thing I have wanted, longed for, and dreamed of all my life... a husband, a home,and a family? Yes, this chapter brought me to that point, and I am so glad that I answered YES! Yes, Precious Jesus, I love Thee more than ALL of these!



So Yes,Nathan and I are no longer together. Yes, I was supposed to get married in less than two months from now. Yes, it was devastating to get that phone call 5 days after he proposed, and hearing him call off the wedding, for no reason. Yes, it was devastatingto receive a letter in the mail, 10 days after he proposed, on our fifth year anniversary, breaking up with me for no reason. Yes, it was hard to have all of my life turned upside down. Yes, there were times of tears and sorrow. Yes, my heart got broken. But, in light of all that learned, I am blessed and I am thankful for all of the things God has taught me through this experience! He took something ugly and made it beautiful. Took my ashes and made them jewels. Took my heartache gave me joy. How then, can I not Praise Him? He is my ALL in ALL, my King, The Lover of my soul, my Saviour, my Couselor, my Comforter, and my soon coming Bridegroom!

My heart rejoices in God, for He is all together wonderful and marvelous to me!



For Nathan, I have no ill feelings. I am not mad or upset with him. My only sadness,

is that he is not in Spiritual Victory now. So I will continue to pray for him and hope that someday he will return to the fold and find once again, the peace and joy that only comes from serving Jesus. I wish him only the best for the future and ultimately I want him to find Jesus precious to his heart again, so that he will make Heaven.



This chapter is finished, and now a new one has begun. I do not know what lies ahead but I know that the Author of my life does and will trust Him because He doeth ALL things well! I am a blank page before God, He has the quill and ink in His Almighty hand, and is writing my story, line by line, chapter by chapter, diligently working toward the time, when He will write with a flourish, "The End."